If only ...

If only you could read my mind.

 If only you could see how much this is killing. 

How much I am trying and trying my hardest to get things back to normal between us.

 You said friends; I'm trying to be your friend. 

But it can't always just be me. 

I need you to try for me. 

I need you to give me a sign, anything, let me know that what I'm doing isn't pointless and pathetic. Let me know,
 don't let me go.